It’s only January and already I’m experiencing the rollercoaster effect.
Beaming: “I’m fabulous and doing great!”
[2 hours later]
Bemoaning: “No one wants my stuff…I’ll never make more money…”
We all go through this. It’s just beautiful to be this fragile and vulnerable. It reminds me that I care and love so deeply for that little frightened child inside me. And inside you.
So, now I have to come clean with what I want – maybe it’s something that my little inner girl always wanted and couldn’t get enough of. Nourishing-Love-Attention-Bravery-Compliments-Coddling-Cuddling. And Adventure. Lots of it.
I get those things now, in spades.
What does the little girl desire once she grows up?
Went to Hiro Boga’s website and spotted her Deva Cards section. I’m a divination junkie, dontcha know.
There’s a little box that says “Intention” ~ here’s what I typed in:
I long to have a beautiful, adventurous life, spending time with my daughter and husband, going to the sacred sites all over the world and have 1 million dollars in the bank. to give to charity, to purchase our land and build our dream home and retreat center. to help our friends and family.
The card I picked : Attunement.
Attunement defined = bringing into harmony with.
Something to ponder as I’m lying at the foot of my daughter’s bed. She’s asleep.
The peace is opening me up and making me a wee bit drowsy.
I’m going to imagine that she, my husband and I are a gorgeous, affluent family, traveling the world, having a splendid time. So carefree. That is my most beloved day/dream. Right. Now. I am. Ready.
And, what I know is that the Divine Creatrix hears all prayers. She knows how much I give, she knows what I hold back, and she knows my pure intentions and my darkest fears.
Freedom is what I crave.